ordinary world

About a year ago today, I was sitting in my dorm room at Lancaster Bible college. I was trying to organize my room. I was pretty nervous and stuff, my parents had left the day before and I was kinda freaked out. (of course I didn't want anyone to know that) lol So I turned on some music to listen to while I put things away, and I chose the song Ordinary World by RED. At the time, it made me feel better, and the chorus seemed to describe my feelings at the time, "Where is the world that I recognize?" and "I wont cry for yesterday, there's an ordinary world I somehow I have to find" resonated. I wanted something familiar, But I had to adapt to where I was. I felt kinda lost in a place full of people I didn't know. haha Even though LBC is not that big.
As time went on I met all kinds of awesome people and felt at home. From time to time though when I was upset or stressed, I would listen to the same song. Kinda became special.
(I am a sap in case you can't tell..) :P

Now today, a year later, I am in quite a different place. Going to a different school, living at home. Lots of things have happened since then. I really miss all the people I met at LBC. It was an awesome year and I learned soo much. and I know that God has a reason for me not going back. His plans are far greater than I can try to figure out. He isn't making any mistakes. Sometimes I do have a hard time not complaining about it, and not just in this aspect of life, but in other ways as well. We all do that, it's hard not to.
So today I was listening to my music on shuffle, meandering on facebook, (bad idea) kinda letting my mind wander. And I was thinking about school, and friends and starting to feel kinda down, and what song comes on? Ordinary world.
As I am listening to the lyrics this time, they seemed to have a different meaning than before. Before I was using them to help me find normality in new surroundings. this time however, I heard the lines "and I won't cry for yesterday, there's an ordinary world somhow I have to find." and I was struck by how different those words sounded now than they did a year ago. Things change, and I may not like it. but I have to search for that "Ordinary world" and find what God is trying to show me in this segment of my life. I can't "cry for yesterday" becuz it's gone. I have to accept the now, and make it something that is just as good if not better than yesterday.
I know this all makes it sound like such a huge deal. And having to switch colleges is not necessarily a life changing situation.. but it's definitely something that I did not like, and have not had the happiest of feelings about. Don't judge me.. lol I just thought I would share how this song kinda helped me change my outlook.